Blissful

Health is not valued till sickness comes.
- Thomas Fuller -

It is health that is real wealth and not pieces of gold and silver.
- Mahatma Gandhi -

My dad finally got rid of the life of carrying 2 bags of lung fluids around for a month. It was a boring dreadful month. #confinement

Thank you, thank you and thank you. 

Words can't describe how I feel right now. #feelingcontent #blissful #happiness :)

A thought occurred to me when my dad was being diagnosed with cancer. He must be living too comfortably, that's why God decided to give him a rather challenging assignment to deal with at this age. This assignment not only meant for him, but for us, as a family member as well. We're all going too easy with our lives.
#takethingsforgranted

People nowadays are so scared when heard about cancer because we're ignorant. We know too less about something we should know, something we're supposed to know. Everyone gave me that startled look when I told them about my dad. "What?! Cancer?! Are you f*cking serious?" Yea, I was there with him when the result was being announced. I dunno what reaction I put on my face, but I can be pretty sure deep down I was as calm as lake water.

Then everyone is so concerned about him, that he would receive few calls a day and few visits a day over the weekend and when he was being hospitalized. This proved to me how strong his connections are. Even a friend from Cameron purposely came to visit him after knowing his condition. So much better than some fake relatives, asking via phone, and the worst part of all is that he asked my aunt rather than calling my dad directly. He got defended by my aunts and my sis, saying maybe he doesn't want to disturb my dad. Yea, right. And both me and my sis got criticised because ACCORDING TO HIM we were too high-profile in social media (and we were like, huh? Wtf?! All I did was sharing videos. Let alone my sis, she didn't even post anything on her wall). Whatever. Generation gap. I had mentioned this before in my previous post, but every time I thought of this, it makes my water boiling up. Ugh. I swear I'm not going to meet them if they ever come KL. I'll make up whatever reasons I can just to avoid meeting them. #toxicpeople #escapist

For people like my dad who loves to look as handsome as he can (he used to comb his hair even though his hair was too short to be combed) to becoming a bald-headed uncle, it was too painful to see. He said - there's no option left for him, is there? - with that pussy car look from Shrek movie. :'(

I wish nothing more than to have his health back and start enjoying his retirement life.

Health

I wonder how one thinks about their health, especially youngsters. Is it like -

Health is like MONEY. We never have a true idea of its value until we lose it.
- Josh Billings -

Because we're young. Thus, we take things for granted - the unconditional love from our parents, money and health. Most of us didn't realise that our health is important until someone around us or ourselves have health issue, what's worst - a critical / severe one.

Lately I've been thinking regarding this matter. I'm not a healthy kid since young, my lungs are weak. Ever since I started working, I gotten sick at least twice a year, and usually I would get the combo package - cough + flu + sore throat + sometimes even come with fever. When I grown up, it's getting unbearable each time I get sick. It's like I'm getting closer to death (maybe I'm being exaggerating but this is what I feel).

I feel like I'm taking my health for granted. My mom keeps on nagging me - not to drink too much of cold beverages; not to starve myself; not to bath too late; if bath too late, not to wash my hair and bathe with hot water. These are the few nags I would get from her almost everyday. I'm such a disobedient daughter. I know those are not good for my health, but I still do it because I think I'm still young, so I can expend my health like nobody else's business.

The truth is, there are some symptoms started showing that my health is gradually walking the downhill. My sis said she could hear the sound of my bone cracking when I tried to stretch my arms or legs. And I always feel my neck and shoulder part being very stiff and sometimes the ache would hit. The sign of getting old. Hahaha. 

I know I should be more consistent on doing exercise, like swimming, jogging or whatever that could make me sweat and would improve my productivity. I feel sleepy everyday when I'm at work and I think that's because I didn't do exercise on a regular basis. But I'm not motivated to do so and I'm lazy. Lots of excuses. :X

To keep the body in good health is a duty... otherwise we shall not be able to keep our mind strong and clear.
- Gautama Buddha -

I MUST to do something. Some changes. Or else mid-20s crisis will hit me real hard.

病向「錢」中醫

有天，和艾莉絲聊起一一說如果有天你被告知得了病，你會（1）拿錢去治療還是（2）拿錢去做自己喜歡的事，不讓自己有遺憾。我們都很一致同意拿錢去做自己想做的事。但今天想想，不對，如果那病是有痛楚的話，你拿著錢能到哪裡去？

我完全認同健康就是最大的財富。因為健康，你才能完成更多的事。看著老爸因為腰痛，整整一個禮拜睡不好了。看了中醫喝了中藥，還是不見好轉。然後又特地去到NILAI看醫生（我也不懂該如何稱呼那位uncle，會醫病的都叫醫生吧哈哈哈）。高手在民間，見到那位uncle我是這麼認為。因為我們仨都給那個uncle推，說筋脈都塞了，痛到飆淚。以為按了就會好一點，結果也是暫時的。我發現人不到最後一刻都不會到醫院求醫。前面開始有症狀的時候，都會去忍，要不然就直接忽略掉。或許是報章上有太多的醫療疏忽，人們都會想，花了那筆錢也不知道醫不醫得好，有時就這麼算了。

心裡不禁會想，我該不會因為這樣而失去他吧？因為生命有時就是那麼脆弱。在死亡面前，都是遺憾一一<鬼怪>說的。你可以說我想多了，但有時候事情很難測。

我覺得把自己照顧好，沒病沒痛就是對父母最好的報答。:')

現在的心情就像這場塞車那麽堵。以為工作後就能很自由，包括經濟自由。放屁！吃家裡，住家裡，除了給那丁點而的家用，對家裡絲毫沒貢獻。連老爸去看醫生，能做到的只是陪他去，錢還是他自己付。失敗 :'(