Now, it's the end of April. I realized that I have not achieved much. Just one thing that keeps playing in my mind, I feel like escaping again. From this routine life.
2015, it's a hectic year despite the fact that now it's only April.
In Jan, I went to Penang and be a volunteer for the Tropfest event. Hoping that I would get to know new faces. At the end, what I got was fatigue all over my body and a darker version of me.
Silhouette
The best shot I had @ Batu Ferringhi.
I was glad that we went to the beach, and gotten a glimpse of my favourite sunset.
We talked. We took photos. We laughed. We even cried. Crazy things happened. But one thing, just both of us cannot go trip together. Eventually we'll lost each other.
In Feb, CNY. Gathering here and there. I'm really thankful that we still keep in touch among primary school friends gang. To be honest, I'm not very keen to join secondary school friends' gathering. My existence there is extremely low. Maybe I over thought, as usual. Anyway, I'm being myself among primary school gang and college gang. Speaking of that, it's been a long time since our last outing with Mou Lut Gang.
Mou Lut Gang
We look like family, don't we?
At Pn.Seow's house, SMKSJ gang.
At Wu Lao Shi's house, SJK(C) Sungai Way gang.
And we must let the flow keep going.
Thus we meet again, before Vinz is flying back to Taiwan.
The gathering that fill with laughter, without fail. I like. :D
March and April are OT months. Still manage to make some quick catch-up, usually over good food.
@SS15, SJ, IKU Japanese Fusion Restaurant
@Seksyen 17, PJ, Food Foundry
@SS15, SJ, Meltz Cafe
@SS15, SJ, Cosans Coffee
@SS15, SJ, McD Drive Thru
@SS15, SJ, Yamada
@PJS 11, Sunway, A Pie Thing
I enjoy talking to friends face-to-face. Rather than through Whatsapp or Facebook. Like what Heather said, talking through social media, you have to guess the tone that one is using. But when you meet face-to-face, you get to see their expression, the tone when they speak to you, and so on. Cyberworld is filled with 'cold' feeling.
I used to say something with many U-turns, at that one point of time. Afraid that I might hurt their feelings. But I'm back to the older version of me, speak more outwardly and more straightforwardly. I still care their response when I spit things out, but I'm not taking back what I have said. I'll apologize if he/she doesn't like what I said. NO regret.
I think it's time to do some confession if I want a friendship to go on. Because both of us are stubborn kind of person. And because I think I'm not a worthy friend. And I get real sensitive if something goes wrong - that it's probably my mind playing tricks on me - overthinking stuff. And sometimes, I just don't know what I really want. Ugh.
p/s: Thanks, buddies. I might not be the luckiest one but I think I have more than enough. To have friends that cheer me up and be by my side when I needed them the most.
