Indulgence

Sh*t, I find myself indulge in something I shouldn't. I back to the me that constantly checking my phone whether there's any incoming messages.

SH*T! I really need to stop now.

Braces 2.

Within a month, I dunno how many times I went for dentist regarding my braces.

Today I went to get another 2 more teeth to be extracted. No more extraction for me, really. I had trauma already. Forcefully extracted the good teeth just for a beautiful smile, is it worth? I dunno now. However, I had already embarked this road, there's no other way but to finish it.

Think twice before getting braces done. Once you're aboard, there's no way you can get down from it.

***mourn silently for the 4 good teeth and 1 baby tooth that I had lost.

Changing rubber for the second time.

Silver looks less awkward now!

Twenties -2-

Every heartbreak makes it hard to keep the faith

- Millions Reasons by Lady Gaga -

I get it. I guess most twenties nowadays are afraid to pour their hearts all out and in the end what they get is heartbreak. 

Some has this fear is because they were hurt by someone they loved before, they wouldn't want to experience the same heart-wrench all over again. While some others, in my case, have seen friends around experiencing that pain, and gradually started to shut their hearts up, not letting anyone in.

Yes, undeniably I'm a coward too. In this era, everything has become too instant, even getting a life partner. There are so many dating apps out there, and everyone else that is single who uses that apps get themselves a girlfriend or boyfriend. Friends would say why don't you try it as well? You see the rest is getting themselves one, pretty easy, it seems. Right. Those that are in the state of happiness couldn't wait for their friends to have that same happiness too. 

Problem is God has everything sorted out, if it were meant for you, then it's yours; if it's not, no matter how you yearn for it, it will never be yours.

I think people need to stop pushing singles to be in a relationship. Being single is fine, I dun need the society to constantly remind me. And why there must be a suitable age for marriage? Beyond that age, you couldn't get married? Why are there so many limitations? WHY are we living in a box?

Just go with the flow, 

I'll walk my own path.

I am me, 

Nobody else can replace me.

20幾歲的悲哀 -1-

20幾歲真的有很逍遙自在嗎？

回想起讀書時代
感覺錢很容易就能夠儲存起來
總會有多餘的錢
一一去購物、給爸媽和朋友買禮物
我甚至還存到錢去學了將近一年半的日語

為啥工作後
收入是有了
但怎麼好像總是覺得欠債纍纍
東西彷彿沒像想當年那麼好買
隨著物價上漲
賺到的根本不夠花
更別說存錢

與其說存不到錢
不如說慾望比讀書時來得大許多
雖然嘴巴一直念著
怎麼什麼都那麼貴
但是手還是拼命在出錢
Facebook一直有朋友tag說
哪裡哪裡開了新的咖啡館
去哪裡哪裡short getaway很便宜
機票現在在做促銷
哪裡哪裡便宜就去咯
再看看instagram
朋友們拍了一大堆美美的照
心裡在想
要是我也能到他們在的地方就好
然後打卡
然後post上社交圈
為的就是得到別人的贊

可悲啊
我到底是為了什麼而活著
感覺一路走來
渾渾噩噩
很幸運地走到了現在這個位置
但事實上
這好像不是我想要的生活

一直很納悶
想要改變
卻挪不開腳步
老是覺得自己在舒適圈內
有時還會被莫名的壓力襲來
壓得胸口悶悶的

啊～
才20幾歲的人
是想怎樣

Confined

Screwed Up

Life has many ways of testing a person's will. Either by having nothing happen at all or by having everything happen at once.

- Paulo Coelho -

Yea, I pretty sure I screwed it up. Burning down the bridges and everything. But decision will need to be made right? Right or wrong, I guess the time will prove it.

NO turning back, NO heavy-heart, that's it. I think I never once fulfill the promise that I made to myself.

我的天空今天有點灰

我的心是個落葉的季節